I don’t know how any of this works

4/18/25

I guess that’s the point. You don’t really know how anything works until you actually try to do anything. It took a long time but now, despite probably being too old and definitely not any better than I was, we’re actually trying. I will not lie to you, the concept of trying is kind of embarrassing. I hate people seeing me try anything. I’m sure this is some failing I can try to pin on society or generational trauma, but at the end of the day it’s all a choice that I’ve been putting off for years for no reason.

Currently, it is 2:08 AM. I’m listening to Marcy Playground’s debut album. The central AC doesn’t work in this house. I’m wrestling with the fact I’m probably gonna die alone and blame it on the fact I didn’t try hard enough at anything I’ve ever done. I’m wondering how honest you’re supposed to be on a blog. It is a great album, Marcy Playground by Marcy Playground. If you haven’t heard it you should check it out.

Anyway. This is a website. We are planning an actual album right now. Lots of old songs that technically will be new since we’ve only ever played them live(I’m still looking for a lady singer and maybe some horns, but that’s just another step.) We have merch now, so that’ll be fun. I think it’d be cool to get the other guys to also add to this blog thing. The fearless leader was a silly idea that would have a bunch of pieces of every member of the band (Abel’s eye, Gio’s mouth, etc.,) looking like some kind of demon, so when other people added to it it would be like a different head was talking. It’s still a work in progress. I expect to get some backlash over it cause you have to expect some backlash for everything you do. Oh well. I fully expect everyone else to not want to open up to a blog. We shall see.

Oh also, there are a couple little easter eggs here already. I love easter eggs, so now that I have some kind of control over something you can actually interact with I fully intend to hide things all over the place. Also just doing dumb stuff in general. I was learning how to code python for the sole purpose of eventually adding an Optic Arrest Dating Sim to this website. That’s actually going well. I just have to hope the crippling depression doesn’t strike in the middle of working on that. It really throws off the flow of production, but we work through it.

Ok. That’s about all I have to say right now. I’m gonna try my best to make something worth checking out. If anyone’s reading this then it means I actually tried to do something.